Have you ever seen a raindrop fall down a window? As it slides down it leaves a trail of itself behind, getting smaller and smaller. Then another raindrop rolls down the window. They meet and become two, which sum is greater than each indivisual drop.

I Fell Like Running Away.

Somtimes I wonder why I have a blog, or why I keep posting junk.
I know no body reads it.
I guess this is kinda my way of telling the universe
"I'm alive."

A dry update

It's been so long since I've actually post anything personal.
I suppose I'll do an update...;

I have a job, and Im working towards keeping it lol.
Im in my senior year now (when I first started this blog I was a freshman). This last year of school has had its ups and downs. Im slowing inching towards graduation though. And then of corse there's prom.
I plan to go tyo community college. It's basically because I was too lazy to apply to any other school.

I guess besides that, everything else is kinda the same, or not worth talking about...

I've been thinking a lot; Life, Love, ect.
When you've fully lived, you've loved.
I have love, and I've loved.
Still, in a sense, life for me is incomplete.
It's progressing but in ways I cant predict.
A life with love IS complete,
However I am not satisfied.

Life can never truely be satisfying.

Resolution

• Find peace and tranquility
• Be tolerant
• Be in control of my life
• Do something AMAZING, and life chaning (in a good way)
• Let go of grudges and negativity towards others
• Forgive

The fog is thick
                But I can still make out where I'm going.
                               It's just where i'll end up i cant see.

Tiles...

I could walk for miles,
and pivot 180.
Walking back on tiles untraveled.

*Look back when necessary,
but dont ever take a step back,
not when your're so close to what you're after.*

We can only be as strong as we think we will.

>all my troubles seem far away...
...but they're knocking at my door<

      >This is a time...

• To get things straight, to put them back in their place

      >I will make rough places plain and walk through them without
      fear.

      -I will.

When tears are shead

Its like a tide.
Waves of emotions, going in and out,
in and out...
It swells, and rises,
spilling over the cheek,
falling off the chin.

Young and innocent, naive.

This describes us all at some point in our adolescent stage. Then something happens, and cruel reality settles in our minds. Its like a hit of cold air. We breath it in. It stays in our lungs for the rest of our lives, until we're ready to exhale.

I dont want to sleep walk through life.
I want to be awake.
I want someone to awaken me.

You can start over. Clean, new. But would you if you had the chance?

The truth is that we all have that chance.
We are ever changing people. We go through phases and start over without even knowing.

Im letting you know;
There is change and we are all in control of how we change.

From negative actions there are negative results and this may result in negative change.
Vice versa for positivity

-Friedrich Nietzsche

"One must still have chaos in oneself to give birth to a dancing star."

It caught me once.
I wont let it catch me again.
It's a horrible, beautiful thing;
A Foe in a Friend.

A place for all the sad things,

>They'll never see the light of day,
Locked away<

>On my site,
in my book<

>Posted so that you may look<

>A place for all the sad things<

Guilt

I did it! But I wont tell you that.
Lies to cover lies, to hide the guilt, to erase the truth.
I'm guilty of this.

Dealing with life in the best ways possible

~Doing the things i love
~Being around people i can stand
~Hoping for the best
~Giving it my all

                        
-and writing every important memorable happening down
  be it on paper or blog.
- Maybe i'll publish a collection
  (probably not)

MORE

I want more.
Im never satisfied, im thirsty for what i fantisize.

Give it to me.
Give me the things i need but cant reach.
Take them and bring them to my hands.

I want it all,
more, much more.
More than you or anyone can imagine.

Time and Space

It's difficult to talk to somone so close in thought, but far in distance.
Could time and space collapse if feelings could completly take over the mind?
Would distance break down until there's little space between us?

When apologies arent enough

They can come too late, at the wrong moments or in the the worst forms.
The point is, sometimes a "sorry" wont cut it. Sometimes we maybe looking  for something more than a solemn expression. Sometimes we want more.

Make an effort.

Going... Gone

I've quit trying to understand where it comes from, these random feelings of pure excitement. People even ask me "Why are you always laughing?" or "How are you so happy?".

IDFK

But I'm self motivated. I'm in love with the small things. It keeps me going... and going... and going... GONE

Until I sleep and wake up refreshed. So I keep going... and going... and going...